Level-Up – Series Category

Level-Up: Part 42

SPOILER: This post gets a bit ‘Californian’ in places. I apologise and will return to Wales by the end of it. In a couple of weeks I’ll be having my last counselling session of this second batch. The counsellor’s asked me to start thinking about how we’re going to wrap it up, what I’ve learnt […]

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Level-Up: Part 41

As I suspected last weekend, and by suspected I mean hoped, the Saturday where I felt that my illness had completely defeated me slowly passed. By Tuesday I was still feeling very unsteady on my feet but I really needed to go out and grab a few things. It was the only day where the […]

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Level-Up: Part 40

When I started writing this series I hoped it would achieve two things. Primarily I wanted it to be a timeline for myself that I could reflect on when I felt I wasn’t achieving anything. I always am, but it’s easy to forget when you’re living it every day. It really has been successful in […]

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Level-Up: Part 39

I hate hospitals. I hate the smell. I hate how hot they always are. I get it. Sick people need to stay warm to keep their defences up. But those dark, stuffy corridors do nothing for my already far too warm blood. Also, with the exception of the maternity ward, I can never shake the […]

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Level-Up: Part 38

I went on a little adventure yesterday and somehow I managed to pull off what I was trying to achieve. I talk about it in this video. For someone who likes to avoid showing their hand and allowing anyone to see their vulnerability, this was a really difficult video to record and an even more […]

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Level-Up: Part 37

The nausea brought on by vestibular disorders is difficult to explain. The sensation comes from your brain, not your stomach. Although it certainly impacts upon it. It’s perfectly possible to be starving hungry but also not feel able to eat. I’ve got a memory of standing in the Selfridges food court both crying and laughing […]

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Level-Up: Part 36

This was a rollercoaster of a week. There were some pretty good days, but there were a couple of really tough days where I didn’t cope very well. In fact, I was almost embarrassed at how badly I handled them. I’m constantly apologising to people in case I’ve been difficult to deal with. Mainly because […]

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Level-Up: Part 35

If this post had a sub-title it would be: feel the fear and do it anyway. This week I had to do two big things. One would require a certain amount of courage and the other called upon all my physical stamina. Following four months of waiting, I was finally called to my top-up counselling sessions. […]

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Level-Up: Part 34

Learning how to manage chronic illness can feel like you’re the magic act on a variety show bill. All your wondrous tricks are, of course, for yourself. Each seemingly impossible feat you make a reality gets you one step closer to what feels like a happier, normal life. But it’s not just for you. It’s […]

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Level-Up: Part 33

It has been a strange week. It’s been a week defined by the most terrible brain fog, which is an impossible thing to explain if you’ve never experienced it. It makes you question your judgement on even the tiniest things. It makes you forgetful and disconnected. It makes you think you must be turning a […]

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